Tuesday, July 5, 2016

A Year

Hello! It's been almost a year since my last blog post. Why so long? Well, starting a new job is never easy. Starting a new teaching job with subjects you've never taught before in a school that allows you to create your own curriculum? That's damn overwhelming.

In the past year I've planned a wedding, kicked butt at teaching teenagers, managed to take over the cheerleading squad, and bought a house with my handsome fiance. I hate to brag, but my life has been pretty amazing. Too bad I only realize that when I stop for a moment to take a deep breath.

Those breaths come rarely. Life right now is so busy, so hectic, so fulfilling. It's rare that I stop long enough to truly contemplate how wonderful it all is. If I'm done planning a lesson, I'm painting a room or sending out wedding invitations. My Jeromy, my home, my job, my kids (all of those teenagers...) -- they completely fill my life.

I started blogging when I was in grad school and feeling very, very lost. I had no idea if what I was doing was best for me. Luckily, at the beginning of grad school, I found Jeromy and I started book club. Luckily, at the end of grad school, when I had given up hope of ever finding a job I would love, I found Ascension.

My life is not perfect. I neglect my friends far more often than I should. I miss my parents more than I'd care to admit. My cat regularly escapes the yard, which gives me panic attacks every time I can't find her. I lose a lot of sleep over my students and my cheerleaders and my lesson plans.

But, right now, in this moment, I felt the need to acknowledge just how good I have it. Because I have it so, so good. My life has always been blessed, but I'm realizing just how much I have to thank God for. My parents are serious #relationshipgoals, I have a man who loves me even when I'm being a brat, and my job is one of my favorite parts of life.

Not many people are as lucky as I am, and I'm trying harder to sit in my gratitude every now and then.